The Emerald Girl

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Monday, February 10, 2014

Why Winter is Killing Me

Around this time of year, every year I get the winter blues. It's dark and cold. Dark coupled with the fact that we live in a basement with practically no natural light. I'd say it's more than just a little depressing. One day I would love to winter in Southern California. Like a bird. Who flies south for the winter. It's dark and cold so I don't want to jog. I am gaining an unfortunate amount of weight, though all of my clothes still fit me. The rational side of my brain tells me that must mean I'm not doing that bad but the part of my brain that sees the mirror with my eyes tells me otherwise. I did just Google "seasonal affective disorder". A few lines down the Wikipedia page and I reminded myself that mental illnesses are just exaggerations of normal behavior. This year will be marked by change as all great years are but change carries the heavy load of uncertainty, doubt and fear. I feel the transition surrounding me. I can't go back and yet I can't move any faster than God has planned for me. Winter sucks. My least favorite season. The longest, darkest, dreariest of all. Winter is slowly sucking the life out of me.

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